Don't judge me YET. Because you STILL don't know me. I am NOT perfect and will NEVER be perfect. So ARE you. Get going and sort IT out. Because you ARE going to face the GIANTS.

Sharing

A W E S O M E is the word I would use to describe today.

Guy called me early in the morning whilst I was still sleeping (ANNOYED at first, but he woke me up when he said it's snowing~!!) We wanted to do something spontaneous like going to Dumfries Galloway forest park, Queens Elizebeth Park, Loch Lomond? I know! It was so random! However, we ended up at the quay and had lunch at Nando's. Guy was pestering me to have a game of bowling since he already brought his equipment in the car! He actually planned to bowl even before asking me! Being nice and forgiving, we went ahead and you might have guessed it, Guy trashed and boosted his ego. (WELL DONE GUY... not..) =p

It was about time to meet HY and kerry. Got HY on the phone and realised that Elaam was coming too! Soon enough, Lisa was coming to meet us for coffee as well! WOW! G came just before we left for dinner at Rumours. Elam had to work and G had to go home for dinner, so it was just me, Guy, HY and Kerry.

We decided to go to Tinderbox and chat instead of Rumours since it was getting busier.

We shared, whined, questioned, basically just reminding and encouraging each other. It was so awesome! I shared with them what happened at the retreat with Dick praying for me. Emotional rush when I spoke.

I am so glad to see how each and every one of my friend has grown in Christ and so passionate in building God's kingdom. I really thank God for what happened today. Everything didn't go as what Guy and I had planned last night. Instead, it was way WAY much better!! Thank you so so so much GOD. You give us the slightest joy and excitement in our lives everyday. Thank you for friends and blessing us abundantly with your grace~~~

"If the wall is too tall, try the tunnel..."

Stumble

I was reading "facing the giants" and I highly recommend this book to folks.

How do we manage out dark days? When you are tired of trying, tired of forgiving, tired of hard weeks or hard headed people. We tend to numb the pain at a bar, bitch about it with someone else, etc. How many of a time you are quick to pray about it?

I would like to quote an analogy from the book, "are we like the sheep on the Turkish cliff? who knows why the first one jumped over the edge. even more bizarre are the fifteen hundred others who followed, each leaping off the same overhang. THe first 450 animals died. The thousand that followed survivde only because the pile of corpses cushioned their fall." I was like, "WOW".

We should seek healthy counsel, someone/mentor who encourages you, not put you down, rides through the storm till you see the finishing line.

I am totally like what I describe above. I refused to confide with anyone and 'leave it to next time'. It is like living in a vacuum room.

My neck is still sore and it has "spread" to the other side! Contagious, maybe? But praise God that at least I am able to turn my head slowly without groaning and it recovered faster than expected. Pray for my job application that it'd be processed as soon as possible so that I'd be able to give definite answers to friends and family members. Bottom line is, have faith and trust in the Lord.

Thank you

I would like to thank the core group for organising this retreat. It is my prayer that the Lord will help GCCC to grow and prosper and may heavens will be done on his ministry. May we be Jesus's adverts and may the holy spirit give us the strength and wisdom to do his will.

Thank you my friends for your prayers/laughter/company. Till we meet again, God bless you.

Fresh start, new chapter.

I woke up not long ago from my 4 hours of nap. Felt really hungry at first. But then I realised not only am I hungry for food but also for more of God! I settled on a huge bowl of cereal(Cheerios) and milk which I think its enough and satisfying since for the past few days I had so much junky foods!

I had the greatest of my life. I feel charged and renewed and praise the Lord for the opportunity and his grace upon me. New blog to express and to log down events in my daily, if not weekly life.

Camp retreats is nothing new to me since I have been to 3 and this is my 4th. My faith for Him grew to a level where I started having so many unanswered questions regarding God that I got frustrated with myself and decided to go on my solo mission and shut Him out completely.

I felt safocated and empty. The things were too much for me to bare that I broke into tears and asked for forgiveness. And this cycle of defiance repeated for quite some time. Until today... ... ...

We had a guest speaker Mr Dick Dowsett and I learnt that he was staying in the same cabin as us and met him on the night of arrival at the campsite. I barely know him as a friend and hardly spoken to him too. At the end of his sermon, he came up to me and hugged me. "Break my heart for what break yours... - Hosanna, HillSong United" was playing in my head.

He patted me on the back and let go. A sudden rush of emotions overwhelmed me and I told him I wanted to cry. He embraced me in his arms and whispered in my ear, "cry it out my son..." It was sensational. My heart was broken, I felt weak and helpless. He held me by my shoulders and asked me what's bothering me. For someone whom I barely know, I revealed my darkest secrets to him.

He understood me totally and looked me in the eye and said "everything is going to be ok". My shame and pride were stripped right in front of this wise mans eyes and he called upon the holy spirit to help me put on an armour of God and be righteous with Him, with the blood of Jesus Christ, my sins are washed away and I am forgiven.

My take away for this retreat is to Trust in the Lord that he will help me to be prayerful in everything I do and not be afraid. Lastly, God is not done with me yet, this is just the beginning.